I’m back after a couple of months again. I missed my old blogging routine during this time. Well, the last two months were the worst yet best months of my life. I have been passed through a hell lot of shit. It was a mixture of anxiety, financial pressure, positivity, bizarre thinking and thoughts, feelings of love and everything in-between.
Back in November, I was planning to move from WordPress.com to WordPress.org. I think I have mentioned this before in one of my blog posts. So I decided not to post anything on the blog until it gets clear. Then I had to wait for two weeks to buy the domain and shifting due to some transaction problems with my Paypal account. In December, there was not at all any routine or work for me. I just almost became a sloth. But this was the time when I started to think those bizarre thoughts I mentioned above. They were all related to Time traveling and Future. I started to perceive the world with a different perspective. I was not intentionally thinking like this, it was all so natural. With each day, I became so much wiser. It was almost like I’m learning the things at a very sharp speed. I got almost detached from the world and people and all those sorrows, happiness and problems being faced by them.
Another bizarre thing happened with me was that I discovered myself an anti-money person. It’s like I’m not meant to make money or earn from my blog. I also noticed that if I try to do so, I become anxious and upset. But even then, I tried to purchase a Bluehost plan for my blog. I wasn’t expecting what was going to happen after this. I got overwhelmed with my own thoughts and a strange feeling related to money. The migration of all my blog posts didn’t go well and it disappointed me. My mind started to question me that Why I’m doing this? Is there any reason? Am I happy with this decision? Why will I put advertisements on my blog? It’s dirty!
I realized that whatever I do, whatever decisions I take, there’s a special feeling for them. An intuition……. ??!!.. I don’t know what you call it, but it is very strong in my case. I missed that in my this decision, however, I felt like it was there, but it wasn’t actually. All of you know that my future depends on this blog but still, it doesn’t feel right to earn anything from it. I refunded my Bluehost account and closed it forever. Though I purchased the WordPress premium plan to get a .com extension. With an unclear future and mind, I felt that Wordads might be the solution and I turned it on now. I tried to bring traffic by following others’ blogs, making social media accounts on several websites, but it made me more upset and anxious. I stopped doing that.
A few days ago I just realized that I’m not meant to generate traffic or to make social media accounts and asking people to visit my blog. Music is my passion. It gave me this second life. Where is it and what I’m doing? Now it was all clear to me that what I’m missing. The happiness. Then I added that in my routine and it sets the things right.
Whatever was it, it taught me some of the best teachings about life. Many of them I couldn’t and can’t explain this in this post. But it brought me more close to myself for sure. Still, I don’t know what will I do to make a living, still, there’s a financial pressure over me. But I’m happy that solved out another puzzle of life.
I’m now doing only those things for which I have that special feeling. No matter if they’re useful or not or can bring any profit or not. If it feels right, it feels right. That’s it!
All I want to suggest to all of you is that Don’t ever take advice from anyone regarding anything. Do if it feels right, don’t if it doesn’t. I’m not requesting now to please visit my blog or share my blog. Do if it feels right, don’t if it doesn’t.
I will try to get back my routine and post regularly. I have some drafts typed a few months ago. They’re ready now and soon you’ll read them all. I’m also trying to get back the Quotes section and the Graphix images as well. Hope you’ll support this blog as you did before! 🙂
Take care all of you!
See you in the next post!